Empty

You told me once
That you'd never make me cry
and you told me once
you'd love me even after we die
you told me so many beautiful things
but you lied to me, and to yourself
you caused me pain when you wanted to help
so much for my hopes and dreams
you wanted my soul, or so it seems

you told me once
to not believe in their lies
and you told me once
to trust the truth found in your eyes
i took these words and held them to my heart
but all they did was tear me apart
so you lied to me, and to yourself
you caused me pain when you wanted to help
so much for my hopes and dreams
you wanted my soul, or so it seems

Again you lied to me, and to yourself
you caused me pain when you wanted to help
so much for my hopes and dreams
you wanted my soul or so it seems
you took my soul, when you took my dreams
You made me empty.

-Chad, 2002

Untitled

Do you hear me anymore?
Do my screams reach your ears?
I've been crying for a long time now.
My throat is raw, but worse is my heart.
I lay and wonder if you still love me.
I knew it was all a dream.

Can you feel me here waiting?
Can you feel the icy blade against my skin?
The blood hasn't yet begun to flow.
But it's hurting to keep it in.
I lay and wonder if you still love me.
I knew it was all a dream.

-Chad, 2002

4 a.m.

She throws her arms around herself,
Wishing she were dead.
No one gives a shit about her,
Why can't she pretend?

4 a.m. knows all her secrets.
4 a.m. knows all her pain.
Her eyes dart around the room,
Alert and conscious, she forgets this time.

The arms take her, big and strong.
She struggles, feeling a prick.
As she grows sleepy, she sees one last thing.
A portal, the gateway to the twisted kingdom.

As she spirals down she sees others
Men, women, and children of all races.
They all wear the same bracelets,
Then she realizes that they are all prisoners.
I need out, the girl thought
As a bracelet clamps down on her wrist
Her screams echo the rooms as they strap her down
Nobody can help her now.

At 4 a.m. she is cut loose
Frantic, she grabs the knife.
She feels the blood trickle down her wrists
And as she waits for Deaths embrace,
She whispers Death is easy, let the night come

Falling (To my love..)

Echoing through the dark, a single cry escapes my lips.
I'm sitting here alone, wondering how I came to exist.
If only I knew the answer to this, my life would seem complete.
But all I can do is sit and wait, for my inevitable defeat.
One day as blackness blanketed around me, I felt your presence near.
All of the void faded away, my perceptions had become clear.
Gazing up into your beautiful eyes, I knew one thing was true.
I knew the meaning of my life, I was meant for loving you.
Things in the past have blinded me, never so sure of something have I been.
Those thoughts that hurt me so much then, with you they are forgotten.
So now I know my reason here, now I know my calling.
Sitting here safely in your arms, because it is for you that I am falling.